SAY IT SAY IT...

I just realized something about myself, I tend NOT to state the obvious (believe it or not), if it pertains to something obvious about someone, that's slightly uncomfortable for everyone. For example, if someone has a giant growth on their face and it's BEYOND clear that it's there I am never the person to point that out when they leave. OR I am never the person when someone is acting out of control and it's just uncomfortable for everyone, to say something about that person…I always let someone else bring it up; and I go as far sometimes as to say I don't see it. The question is why? Why CANT SAY IT SAY IT?!?! It's really odd actually, it's like I can call things out all day long. My thing is I always try and speak what I am feeling but anything that's slightly uncomfortable I don't like to point out, b/c I guess in some ways I know how that feels. To be the ODD man out! I don't think I have ever said that or admitted that out loud, b/c then I would have to be honest about the fact that I do that. AND then I would be posed with the question WHY do I do that, and I don't think I ever really thought about why I do that, until now. Or rather I thought about it in my head, silently but certainly NOT out loud! WOW weird right? HAPPY HUMP DAY! XOXO BTC

FULL OF HOT AIR

It's so weird being a former editor, being friends with editors and then walking into situations now with NEW editors for my clients; all while STILL feeling like I don't fit in! As much as I love what I do/did, I am not sure I love/loved it as much as I thought that I did. I have a much better understanding of what I for sure don't like, people I don't like and emphasis on things I could give a shit about…but somehow find myself STILL stuck in this fashion shit town. Why is it that everyone is so full of hot air? AND will it ever change? My inclination is to say NO, NIET, NUNCA! Who can wear the higher heels, who has the skinnier legs, who has the better bag, who wears the better jacket, who can land the better story, who has the better blog, who has the cooler friends, who designs their own line, who collaborates? UGH enough is enough you all shit the same way, fuck the same way (or rather probably not even possible when you are decked to the nines in all you wears), eat the same way (if at all), so why is it that you have an "air" about you that is NOT hot?!?!?! It is time for me to make some changes, it's time to move away from the things I loathe about fashion and it's time to stop bull-shitting a bull-shit artist. The question is HOW and WHEN? Lets start with my book…that's a perfect way for me to move into new territory, territory I love…keeping it real! "Terrible Tuesday"…UGH! XOXO BTC

SLEEP IS OVERRATED!

WHY people think that it's cool that I can function on very little sleep, is kind of beyond me. At this very moment I could literally put my head down and pass out! I am in dire need for SO much rest it's not even funny, not to mention I have not taken a proper vacation in 8 YEARS, Yeah no for real 8 fucking years. There are SO many variables to it, time, business, kids, money, life and life on top of life. People look at me like I am nuts and I know that I am, BUT at the same time devoted time for myself has never been my strong suit; at least not after I got married and had kids. I remember those years of taking vacations with my man, at least 2 times a year and not even realizing how lucky we really were. OR rather I realized I just never thought about THAT ending. When it enough enough? And when do you sacrifice other things to go away? Some people I know don't have a problem doing that AT all. SO my next goal in life, a vacation:) SO it's Thursday, PHEW! XOXO BTC

IT'S NOT YOU, IT'S OLD!

I just realized the other day while I kept thinking why does my back hurt, why can't I pop up quickly like I used to, why does my face look like someone punched it in? OH wait, it's not me…it's old. It's old rearing it's ugly head on me, as I quickly approach 40!! How is it that I just realized that my face is catching up to my age?!?!?! It's not you…it's old! As I quickly approach my 20 year HS reunion this May, I am met with mixed emotions on so many levels. I will be attending with best friends from childhood, while running into people I LOATHE from that same time period. How do you become one of those people who go, vs. some of those people who do not? Which is the cooler of the 2? AND do people even care if you go or not? I am kinda in that boat at the moment stuck in that place where I do want to go, but at the same time I kind of want to bail? WAIT how did I even get on that tangent? AH yes...getting old. WHATEVER! It's Wed. one day at a time! HA! XOXO BTC

"LEAN ON ME…"

I just don't know what happens all of a sudden when you realize that someone you thought you could really count on, makes it so that you can't! What happens to your relationship when they want it to remain the same, but you know that things will forever be different. What happens when you can no longer sing in unison, 'Lean on me…" It has finally stopped snowing, but that means nothing b/c we are getting another 4 inches tomorrow so no rest for the weary! Tonight we are taking Aiden to see "Cinderella" on Broadway (and dinner) for V-day. She deserves a night with us without the blond monster, so we thought what better way to spend the holiday than with our BOO! She is so excited as are we, actually not sure who's more excited:) I hate this holiday I really do, but I love my kid..so it makes it special. Wishing everyone a very Happy Valentines Day, or at least to those who care about it..I personally do not! XOXO BTC

P, P, P, P, P, PRESSURE!!!

No only does this snow depress the hell out of us, there is added pressure to get everything done! You can't run a business effectively, day to day with weather like this. You can't run your normal life b/c your kids are never in school! AND you can't run a normal relationship with you husband b/c you are literally on TOP of one another! It's a nightmare all the way around if you ask me…and clearly not want anyone needs at this time of year to boot! As SOON as the holidays are over, everyone is in deep depression. Another day had to close the office, work remotely and miss out on things that HAVE to get done. The only saving grace is the projects I have going on with the kids, movies, they can tire themselves out and play in the snow; AND a shit load of food. I hope everyone stays safe and warm, and feel horribly for those who do not have proper shelter:( XOXO BTC

SCARED SNOWLESS

It's amazing how much snow we are getting…it's just amazing! I am not against the snow or winter for that matter, but I do have to say this is a little extreme for EVERYONE who is being affected! More snow is on the way, which really means my kinds won't have school and I have to then be locked in the house with them all fucking day. AND I have to be locked in the house with my man too. It's Wed. which means the weekend is coming…which means I can legit drink without feeling ANY guilt AT all. Clearly these are the things I worry about! I need a list of activities to do with the kids, maybe I will hit up Wall-greeens when I get home so that we have a bunch of shit to do, while we are snowed in like sardines in a can! OYE! XOXO BTC

IT'S LIKE A LIGHTBULB GOES OFF EVERYDAY...

I feel like one of those nutty people who thinks of things, and then only 1% gets done; especially when thinking about new business ideas!! It's super annoying on so many levels, but at the same time exhilarating that my brain can work like that. HOWEVER, I don't tell people a lot of my ideas AND I don't want to be the person who always comes up with something but never follows through, you know? I make fun of those people, literally:) It's Monday, I hope everyone has a nice week. Not sure it's even possible anymore giving the depressing nature of life as we know it, with snow coming down EVERY fucking day. It's bananas, and clearly no one is happy about it AT all. So if there were not enough people who would potentially go postal, now there CERTAINLY is. XOXO BTC

BEST FRIENDS ARE BETTER THAN BOOZE…BUT KINDA RELATED IN SO MANY WAYS:)

It's so nice at the end of a really hard day, to have a glass of wine. It feels like just what the dr. ordered, and at the same time spending QT time with your best friend, feels the same way! I so enjoy long nights with good red wine, as I do long nights with my girls. Last night I had dinner with my bestie on the face of this planet, just us and good food and wine. Tomorrow night I will be spending the night at another best friend's, no kids and lots of good red wine. It's such a nice pairing if you ask me. Today is Friday, my husband is home sick which SUCKS b/c it's the day that I myself work from home. I really wish that he was NOT here, I would get that much more done. It's lovely spending time with him, but is also lovely spending time apart. I hope everyone has a great weekend with their friends and family no matter what you do! TTYL! XOXO BTC

THE CALM AFTER THE STORM

IT's so lovely when it does snow, rain or whatever and you are completely confined to your home the idea of getting OUT the next day! It's like at the end of the day you start to appreciate the fact that you were able to stay home, warm and toasty b/c tomorrow you have to venture out. It also happens to be a Thurs. and we KNOW how I feel about Thursdays…it's closer to Fridays. I hope everyone on the east coast was safe and sound…and if you are on the west coast I hope your need of water is met soon too! IF you are at the olympics I hope you find better digs, I hear it's quite ghetto at the moment up in those hotels. OYE! XOXO BTC

THE REAL HOUSEWIVES OF...

I can't even begin to fill in a word after "of"… but lets just try and think what might work out well there. The Real Housewives of douchville, nowhere, the ghetto!! OMG that might be my FAV. Clearly that's what I am watching at the moment, and it's embarrassing sometimes what these women go through, say, do, etc. HOWEVER, HOWEVER it is FOR SURE entertaining, I give them MAD props for being on here on just letting it all hang out; and they really just don't care what people think about themselves. I can relate to that, to an extent:) It's a lovely night for me, I am solo with the kids (Brian is on vacation I mean in NYC for work for the next 2 days), that it's kind of a relief to have these time for just me (oh and the other person that lives here too). There is SO much snow coming tonight yet again, that I am almost out of "what to do" with these kids b/c they won't have school again tomorrow. ON TOP of that, I have to close my office b/c both Beth and I can't even make it in! UGH nothing really gets DONE!! Off to eat some dark chocolate. Until next time... XOXO BTC

THE MOST TALENTED ARE ALWAYS THE ONES TO GO….

It's always THE most talented, THE smartest people who end up succumbing to the deamons of death. It is amazing to think such creative minds can be so corrupt. Why do we lose so many amazing people to drugs, so young…and how can we stop this madness. It saddens me to think that people ask questions like what is wrong with them? Or why can't they just get their lives together? Clearly it's not that easy, you can't just "get rid" of a disease you can only manage it as best as possible. On a much lighter note, today is a snow day and I have both beavis and butthead home. I want to jump out of a window b/c if I am bored you know they are too! AND then I have my man telling me he HAS to get to NYC for work and that he may spend the night in a hotel for a few days b/c it's Legal Tech. FIRST Of all that's the biggest crock of shit I have ever heard, not to mention just pisses me off that he thinks that is even remotely OK, given I will once again be everything to everyone. I need a manicure and I can't even get THAT shit done! UGH, here we go again! #BORED XOXO BTC

Rabbit Rabbit

Today is Feb. 1st but it still feels like January 31st to me. No MAJOR changes in my feelings, the world still feels the same, and I am still dealing with the same bullshit I dealt with yesterday, just in a new month. I always want the new month to feel fresh, but it doesn't…well not yet at least. The best part about it is that so many months it says it's going to focus on romance, WTF is romance? I can't remember the last time I had that…I guess that's partly my fault too. In any event, today is Saturday and we have no plans. The odd thing is that I always wait for the days that we have no plans, b/c we are always running around like crazy; then they come and I regret not having something to do!! WTF is wrong with me? So now it's sat. and we don't have a firm plan (Brian and I have dinner tonight with friends) but I am kicking myself that we don't have something to do with the kids, BUT at the same time tomorrow is Super Bowl and we have a VERY full day. UGH I am happy to wake up healthy, with my family, and blessed to have the things I have so everything else pales in comparison. I hope everyone has a very lovely weekend, and enjoys some time with their family and friends! Bon Weekend! XOXO BTC