JUST SAY IT LIKE IT IS!

You know when you are supposed to see someone and then something like a tsunami happens? I mean it doesn't literally happen but there's that moment when you know it won't happen, just like every other time you are supposed to hang? Yeah that…what do you do when that happens? You make better plans!!! But when do you say enough is enough and no longer put any energy or effort into your relationship? Like when do you realize you are a good friend to a person who's not such a good friend to you? When do you just say it like it is, and how? On a completely other note... The Holiday seasons hard for so many people, it's like a double edged sword. You love all of the holiday decorations and music but the reality is the Holiday is hard. Putting family together all the time, spending more money than you want to admit and then making a ton of plans with friends and family to pack it all into that week between Christmas and New Years. You eat things you don't want to eat for another 12 months, you drink more than your liver can take…all the while putting on a happy face while doing it. Ironically people are more depressed during this time than any other time a year…and the worst is Jan. to March, might as well hang it up and hibernate until the spring b/c it's the fucking WORST!! Add in the snow, freezing temps and all around shitty weather and you have the post-holiday blues. On that note, we are off to 2 best friends today/tonight b/c you know there's nothing like packing it all in:) HAPPY HOLIDAYS! XOXO BTC

"LETS HEAR IT FOR THE BOY!"

We clearly have to be the biggest cheer leaders for our kids, but sometimes I just wanna sit back and relax. Is that bad? I think to myself can't I just relax while you play with yourself? It just never happens, like EVER! Take today for example, I have to do a work call at 10 AM and then take Lila on a play-date for a few hours. I mean it gives her something to do, and I can talk to adults but at the same time I just want to wear sweatpants all day and stay home! I am looking forward to the coming weeks of family and friends, celebrating the holiday and not thinking about real life. What I am not looking forward to is post holidays, when everyone is super depressed and it's freezing up in the place! UGH i would like to knock out months Jan-March and just wake up in April when it's warm again, and everyone's exciting about the idea of having drinks al fresco. And so it goes…UGH I am hungover and exhausted and it's only fucking Monday! XOXO BTC

TAKE MY ADVICE WILL YAH?!?!

It's THE single most annoying thing when someone asks your advice, like really asks…sets aside time to talk to you, values your opinions and then doesn't remotely do what you suggest! That is BEYOND BEYOND if you ask me! Welcome Monday lord knows I love you! XOXO BTC

"SHOOTING AT THE WALLS OF HEARTACHE (BANG BANG) I AM A WARRIOR….."

I LITERALLY feel that way almost everyday in the area I grew up in. As I get older I feel further and further away from the type of people I used to call my friends, realizing that I always felt different because I WAS in fact different. I don't even think it was so much them making me feel that way, I think I just felt that way b/c it WAS that way. I am now sitting in the same town, looking for a home and clearly not committing to one b/c I don't even fucking like it here; but then there's that part of me that shouldn't and doesn't care about them, but has to see them AND THAT is super annoying. I think to myself would it be better to move to a completely different state? And how far would I have to go? I don' want to leave the best friends that I have had my entire life that live in the general vicinity of where I live, and oh my family too of course. Makes things a bit more complicated. I think that's what I loved about the city, the anonymity of it all was fantastic and you just saw who you wanted to see and ran into who you wanted to run into (on occasion there's always a one off) and there were all different types of people and schools; I just loved it. I know there were things about it I didn't love too, but those were things I could easily overlook. I am sad that there's not a place in NJ that exists with GREAT schools and everything that I want, that really good mix of people it's forcing me to think outside of the box that's for sure, but it also makes me sad to think that for the better part of my life I wasted so much time being friends with the wrong people. "TERRIBLE TUESDAY" is in full affect! XOXO BTC

"ISN'T IT IRONIC DON'T YOU THINK!"

WHY is it t

hat the holidays are just so hard for everyone, no matter what you celebrate? No for real, why are they so hard?? Everyone is supposed to have all of this good cheer and really it's far and few between. Everyone is spending more $ than they have, annoyed at all the holiday plans, AND don't forget my all time favorite the increase in caloric intake is BEYOND anything anyone wants to remember. "Isn't it ironic, don't you think?" I do love so many things about the holidays, the most fun is giving gifts to those you love:):) But I am really just so sad for those who can't share in the same joy, and who's lives are feeling off kilter during this time of year. It seems to magnify it all. Sending thoughts to all of those who are feeling down, there is always someone in the world thinking about you! XOXO BTC

WILD, WILD HORSES

It's been such a strange start to the month of December. 2 NOT 1 suicides this week, and it's just devastating no matter what you relationship was with or to them. You wonder how someone could be in such a dark, dark place, make one decision and then just like that, it's over. You wonder how they can torture the people that they love for the rest of their lives, just so that they could be a peace. You feel incredibly sorry for them, but in a really weird way you can for ONE split second understand the depth of their sorrow. Those moments when you feel like you can't breathe, BUT what do you do…you breathe, you move past it and do the very best that you can, everyday. You get up, take a shower, take care of your kids, work and wash, rinse, repeat. I am so sorry for all of their family and friends, just a really weird week. BTC

SUSAN MILLER'S GOT IT GOING ON!

What is it about Astrology that we all turn to? Or at some people do? I mean cosmically there's got to be more than a little truth to what they say, so why are there nay sayers? I mean don't you live you life by your daily horoscope? Don't you plan out your month based on what she says, and then when it does in fact happen say things like, "Susan Miller said that would happen" like her word is the word of God? Whomever God really is? Today is Dec. 3rd and even though she was a few days late, I was glued to my monthly read. I mean I literally sat in my kitchen and read it out loud, always think that like school I absorb that a bit better. I truly believe what she says is true, and I wait patiently every month for the next one…but in theory if I am doing that, does that mean I am not paying good enough attention to the month that I am in; and the things going on? Today is Wed. I need a drink but I don't drink during the week anymore, so I will settle for a dark chocolate chip I have to make my famous cookies. #loser. XOXO BTC

SANTA, I'VE BEEN BAD!

OMFG I don't know why every year I tell myself I am not going to overeat on Thanksgiving and every year I do and feel like I am going to fucking hurl by 6PM. UGH it's really disgusting and I swear my body is like WOOOW WTF. In any which case, it was a really peaceful holiday. The weekend was great too, family, friends, etc. it's always nice to have 4 days like that, you actually forget what it's like to spend that much time together. I am trucking like crazy to get this book in on time, so it leaves me very little time to be on here. BUT HELL it's WORTH IT! #terribletuesday XOXO BTC