CAN'T EVERYONE JUST BE HAPPY FOR ME?

So many times in someone's life you want the people that mean the most to you, to be THE most supportive people no matter what decisions you make. Some will be good decisions some will be bad, but you need those people by your side. In work, it's a totally different story. You are never TOO sure who your alliances are, and if they would ever turn on you in ways you can't imagine. You think you know them, you WANT to know them but at the same time they are not REALLY your friends. I like to think that my friends in my industry ARE my friends, and that former and/or present clients have my back but at the end of the day you just never know. It's Thursday tomorrow, closer to the weekend, which means I get further away from the bullshit.WOW this month sucks a moose cock! XOXO BTC

WTF IS WRONG WITH PEOPLE?

I know not everyone is great about doing anything and everything for friends, but I find that there are just SO many people that don't do ANYTHING for friends. They make it about them, instead of when it's supposed to be about the other person…it utterly amazes me! Clearly everyone can't stop their life for every single event in a friends life, but can't you bend a little? At the moment, I am helping plan a spa day for Brian's Aunt (who is on her 3rd marriage btw) and everyone involved are being total fucking ASSHOLES! Here is the latest response from Leslie Rubenstein (whoever the hell this gal is I haven't a clue), but her response infuriates me: "Aren't services usually individual? I'm really not interested in just coming for a treatment if I'm not spending any time with Judy. Is the idea for Judy to be treated for a spa day?" How does GO FUCK YOURSELF sound?? WHO the hell has time for this shit, that's what I want to write back but then that will just create an entire can of worms I don't feel like dealing with. Can't wait to see this piece at the wedding. SO it's "Terrible Tuesday" and you know everything just is OFF on days like this. I hope everyone is having an OK day, just relish in knowing this day sucks for all! XOXO BTC

YOU ARE SO AWKWARD…YOU MUST WORK IN FASHION

I think I have always felt a little "fish out of water" if you will in my industry, b/c well I am not that strange. As odd as that may sound, I myself am not sure why people in my industry are so, well, odd. I mean clearly super talented, have a love for the art form, but are so strange and not approachable; yet admired by their peers and other industry figures. Sometimes I want to say, WTF the stranger you are the more successful you will become? Why don't the ordinary people ever really make it, b/c really they don't! Take the Olson sisters. SUPER talented, love the fact that they never got super fucked up as child stars, but if you watch them in an interview or simply walking around you think…ugh why are they so awkward. They are just one example but I think you get what I mean. On a much lighter note, today is Friday. You know I feel like the days just blend into one at this point in my life, but it does mean I can have a drink tonight and not feel badly about feeling badly tomorrow AM; when I wake me ass up to work it off. Gotta love how high I strive! XOXO BTC

I AM OVER IT AND THEN SOME…

I can only imagine that everyone gets to a point in their career when they feel like they need MORE of something. You need to be MORE creative, you need MORE stimulation, you need LESS bullshit from others, etc. The question becomes what do you do with those emotions and how can you channel them into something NEW, different and more rewarding. As my life changes so does my career, it's inevitable and to be completely honest I welcome change. Nothing feels better to me than to purge the old and start a new. That does not work for everyone but it has always worked for me. I am not the person who can sit and do nothing, I always want to feel challenged, and because I want to feel challenged it allows me to continuously learn and grow in an industry I have been in for 15 years. WOW that fucking dates me now doesn't it:) Today is Thursday, such a good day…LOVES! XOXO BTC

FORGIVE ME LORD FOR I HAVE SINNED

It's Easter tomorrow and like Passover I could give a RATS ass! There are a few good things that happen on this day, one being I spend it with my siblings, with wine going overboard, lots of amazing food, and my kids are SUPER happy. It's also the best thing in the world to wake up in the AM and see how incredibly happy your kids are, when they see that the Easter Bunny came to visit. They eat tons of candy, wear pretty dresses and just play all day with their cousins…now THAT is delicious. The part I could and still don't understand is all the religions shit that goes on. I have always been so liberally NOT religious that now that I am older, I think to myself how and what do I teach my kids? We collectively decided that it would be all about love, tradition and family NOT religion. If they at anytime decide they do identify with either of our religions one more than the other, more power to them…However I selfishly hope they are like me, and are not identified with any ONE, but embrace and celebrate it all:) Happy Easter to those of you who do celebrate, it's a family day after all! XOXO BTC

MY LOVE/HATE RELATIONSHIP WITH SPRING

It's SUCH a lovely time of year. Beer tastes better alfresco, everyone's in a better mood and no one needs to go away anymore because it's so nice outside! It's the preemptive beginning to Summer, what's not to love about Spring? WELL allergies for one! I mean I have such a love/hate relationship with this time of year. Fond memories of Lacrosse practice and games (ridic. but true), falling in love with just about EVERY former B-friend (including my husband) this time of year; and don't forget the end of school was always OH so lovely…but it was also always a time when I could not fucking breath. I could barely wait to get inside to air-conditioned rooms, had a swollen face for like EVER (or what felt forever), exhaustion from the allergy meds I was forced to take; AND lets not forget walking around sneezing like it was my JOB! I still have the the same relationship…kinda like mediocre sex. Even if you know it sucks you still kinda like/want it? ANYHOO, it's Thursday so you know what that means…the weekend is just around the corner, but then again all the days blend together so is there really such thing as a weekend anymore? Until next time… XOXO BTC

"FOR THE FIRST TIME IN FOREVER…"

I don't want to scream at people I know:) Like for this moment I feel pretty content. I could do without the NYC commute home (but don't have that for much longer), I could do without the rain this AM, but I honestly don't want to just scream at the top of my lungs at someone, and DEF. not someone I know! It's Terrible Tuesday so that's weird, but maybe it has something to do with the vodka on the rocks I started my week with last night? I don't like to drink during the week just sets me off but it went down really easy last night, nice and SMOOTH! This is Jess's last week in the office, and it's super sad:( The good thing is we won't be existing much longer without her…onto bigger and better things for that little gem! XOXO BTC

SING, SING A SONG...

Everyone has that THING that they wanted to be, whether it be an actor/actress, singer, whatever…everyone has that "thing." I had moments or warped moments thinking I could be a singer, but you see no one knows this! HA I don't think I have ever even written it..more like thought it. Even in those camp plays you feel like you are on top of the fucking world, and you are in the middle of nowhere (New Hampshire to be exact); but you are singing at the top of your lungs to the best of your ability! Today is Thurs. Brian is out drinking and such, while I am home with the kids watching Grey's Anatomy. To some that may sound totally lame, to me it's heaven. Is that bad that heaven is when he's not home? I had a great call with my editor this morning, which means the book is on it's way…spring 2015. :) Nighty Night! XOXO BTC

Who's The Babe?

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