THE NEXT BIG THING...

I feel for all of those child stars who get lost in life. I can say with conviction, that in my youth if I WERE famous and it was this type of time, I would have gotten caught doing shit I was not supposed to. Actually not really true, I was a good kid. I was never too far over the edge, I was already worried about being caught! I was worried it would affect my school work, or my sports, or my parents would be disappointed in me. HOWEVER, when we got to college that was a different story:) BOTTOM line is, this day and age everything is out there for everyone to see and it's just HARD to think about crazy that really is. I mean how INSANE it is that someone does something and it's everywhere for everyone to see in a matter of moments. I hope that my kids make the right decisions (most of the time anyway), and when they don't I hope no one is looking. If I had a reminder of all the shit I did, I might not think so highly of myself! SERIOUSLY!! THANK THE FUCKING LORD for Thursday night, excuse me while I drown my week in a vodka/wine combined evening. XOXO BTC

I'M SEXY AND I DON'T KNOW IT…

FOR REAL! With all of this snow falling CONSTANTLY, I feel like branwy! I wear snow boots and corduroy paired with parkas and ear muffs; SO not a good look! I miss the days when you can look good, sexy, womanly! Right now I just look like a dude. There is NO sexy look when it comes to this, and then you look at the people in your industry that are still trying to look that part and they just look like idiots b/c it's -5 below 0 and they are in stilettos! It's another day, hump day…could potentially be a GOOD day. I REALLY need this day to go well, I think there are times in your life when you really do pray to whatever gods there are that you do or do not believe in, and this is just one of those days. A turning point day, a day I need to go the RIGHT way not the WRONG way. I deserve that, everyone does now and again. It's so great seeing SO many successes around you, but would be nice to see a little bit of that for you too. NOT too much b/c I know everyone as a much harder road than me, but still a nice thing to think about in theory. Fingers, toes and legs crossed too. XOXO BTC

AND THEN I REMEMBER…

And then I remember WHY I own my own business, why I slave day in and day out to do EVERYTHING for everyone! I have little lila here today, she's down with a bit of a cold and I thought why NOT take her with me:) It's so lovely having her here, AND not to mention she can easily miss school and not feel like she is missing out on anything at all. It's Monday but HEY life is good…it could always be worse:) XOXO BTC

"SO WHAT TO DO, WITH THE REST OF THE DAYS AFTERNOON HEY…"

It's DATE night tonight…but not for Brian and me, for Aiden and daddy:) It's kind of amazing to think that the dad can mold the daughter so intensely and for both my girls, Brian is THE best day ever. I am so happy that they will have him to look up to, talk to, cry to, yell at:) It's THE most amazing thing…daddy and daughter! They will be having dinner tonight and seeing a movie, what could be cuter?!?!?! I hope that everyone has a lovely weekend! Until next time… XOXO BTC

I DON'T KNOW…MAYBE YOU CAN DO ANYTHING YOU WANT TO DO

I don't really believe that, I think you can do A LOT of what you put your mind to…but not everyone can run REALLY fast, just because they want to, you know? I have been enjoying helping one of my best friends re-design her home, and really, truly enjoying it! It's a departure from what I do, but the same in so many respects. It gets my mind off of things, I think there's always been a part of me that wanted to style; but just never wanted to BE a stylist! It's good to know I still have other interests that are married to the things I already know. Will post some before and after pics for sure. In the meantime, it's snowing like a mo of here in NJ…another snow day today AND tomorrow. I love my kids AND my man but this takes it to an entirely new level. We have spent FAR too munch time at home together, inside with very little to do; or drink for that matter. I will be at work for a total of one day this week, which is WAY less than anyone should ever be in their office; however, we are very lucky we are able to do what we need to do…from home. I hope everyone is safe and warm…my most FAV. thing about snow is the quiet. It's so still I wish I could bottle it up. XOXO BTC

TODAY IS MY DAY

Or at least that's what my horoscope said! Is there a book out there that outlines horoscope bullshit? Like This is going to be the BEST month of your life, you are going to find the man of your dreams, get married, have a baby, AND win the lottery. Then the day comes and goes and you are the same boring person you were before you read it? WTF is that about? BUT it is like the lottery...even though you know it's bullshit you still try and win!!! I hope everyone is having a lovely Hump day! Half the week is over, and I am really looking forward to the weekend but I am not there yet…so it all just feels like the same crap. NOT to mention this bag I ordered from Free People still has not arrived and I am so annoyed on the phone with them, while they play the only french song I think I know or have ever heard. J'adore some shit. WHATEVS! XOXO BTC

LETS RUN AWAY...

and then no one can find us? That would be SWAAAEEET! How horrible is that, that I wanna run away from everyone and everything. What would happen if I actually did? Just booked a flight, packed a bag and set out and off to no where land? That would be amaze balls. And then wrote a note that said don't call me, I'll call you:) Today is Sunday, which in theory is no different than any other day; except I have to be home all day finding activities for my kids! HAPPY WEEKEND! xoxoxo BTC

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I wish I loved myself more in High School. Like REALLY liked myself, realized all of my assets, my voice, my personality, my body, my everything. If I could go back I would be MORE of that…I exuded confidence which everyone knows, but at the same time I was suffering inside. I look back and think, WTF I was right on! Those are my drunken thoughts for the evening…BYE BYE! XOXO BTC

EXCUSE ME…(WITH A SMILE), ARE YOU A NANNY?

I MUST begin by saying there is NOTHING in the world wrong with being a nanny. NOTHING at all, I just happened to not be one…but really nothing is wrong with that. What is wrong is that people just make the assumption that I AM a nanny, b/c of what my kinds look like. I had ANOTHER run in this AM, with a plastic surgery nightmare of a woman, and this time I just could not take it for ONE more moment!! If I were not in a public place I think I might have hit her in the face! FOR REAL, how awful is that? I don't know which is worse that I would hit her, or that I would have been ok with doing it? EITHER way, I am DONE PEOPLE! DONE! Do your homework, go back to school, figure out what is right in this world and what is wrong. Not my chair NOT my problem, so please stop making it my problem! It's the LAST thing I wanted to deal with while siting with my 3 year old (who by the way said she is not a nice person when she walked away) and I proceeded to just yell loudly that she was stupid, but I mean COME ON! I am going to welcome this weekend with some HEAVY boozing this evening…I ain't going nowhere and I ain't got shit to do! SO with that said, I hope everyone has a better day than the way that mine started. XOXO BTC

A NOW THE SHITTIEST TIME OF YEAR...

It's REALLY the worst time of year…January to March. NOTHNG at all good happens, just tons of cold weather and lots and lots of snow! I don't even like to get out of bed, there's nothing to look forward to. I mean Easter Passover who gives a shit about those holidays? NOT I! Considering I celebrate both of them, still nothing to write home about. What is it about these months that suck SO bad? JUST about everything! Here are my top ten reasons why to hate this time of Year: 1. IT IS TOO FUCKING COLD 2. PEOPLE ARE UNHAPPY B/C THE HAPPIEST TIME OF YEAR JUST PASSED 3. THERE ARE NO FUN HOLIDAYS AT ALL, ONLY SEMI-LONG WEEKENDS 4. YOU CAN'T DRINK ALFRESCO 5. EVERYONE IS STICK 6. EVERYONE GETS YOU SICK 7. EVERYONE IS PALER THAN EVER 8. YOU HAVE TO WEAR SEVERAL LAYERS TO GET DOWN TO THE CHOCOLATE CENTER 9. YOUR SEX APPEAL GOES DOWN THE TOILET, ALONG WITH ALL THE JUNK YOU CONSUME B/C YOU ARE THAT MUCH MORE SEDATARY 10. ALL THE REASONS I STATED ABOVE XOXO BTC

SOMETIMES I WANT A 3rd KID, SOMETIMES I DON'T WANT ANY!

I mean not LITERALLY, but today I kinda don't want ANY!

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!I

IT'S THE NEW YEAR TODAY, WOO HOO…I don't even feel that way, but just seems right to say. The night was great, just hate New Years for some reason:):) HAPPY & HEALTHY NEW YEAR! XOXO BTC