A NIGHT WITHOUT ONE KID, IS LIKE VANILLA ON AN ALREADY ICED CAKED!

OH and please don't forget the night ALSO included or I should say did NOT include my husband…SO LOVELY! I clearly need to get out more. In any event there are is not enough red wine in my home for the evening. You know when you are so looking forward to something and you are like YES WINE…and then you are like wait, I opened that bottle yesterday so there's not a full bottle? Yeah that moment, but at that point you have already had a drink or 2, so NOT going to go out and get more. NOT to mention, you have a kid sleeping in the other room so there's no going anywhere! Tomorrow is New Years Eve day, another year goes by and I keep waiting for THAT year THAT special year to blow me over, to make me understand my being here, to make me feel like mountains have moved. I am STILL waiting for that, so it kinda leads me to believe that YEAR may not happened. BUT I AM the girl that's glass half full, not half empty. Wishing all you (that small amount that even reads and cares), a VERY Happy & Healthy New Year! Here's to another, hoping it does not SUCK ROYALLY! XOXO BTC

RAINY DAYS AND MONDAYS ALWAYS GET ME DOWN..

When I had kids, rainy days just changed. I used to LOVE being home in sweats all day, drinking wine, chilling and doing NOTHING. BUT now that I have kids it just involves all of that but with no relaxing, and also no chilling, literally! I have to worry about them having an activity, not being bored and more importantly keeping them away from each other so that no one gets killed!! I miss the days I could just smoke a J have a glass of wine and chill…alas those days will return, when the kids are like 18. Happy Holidays!! XOXO BTC

MERRY CHRISTMAS, MERRY CHRISTMAS, MERRY CHRISTMAS…AND HAPPY HOLIDAZE!

AND another year goes by, as we bounce right into celebrating 2013 and look forward to 2014! The possibilities, the challenges, the hard times and the good ones…I look forward to what it to come (I think:). I hope everyone who celebrates the holiday today, had a lovely day with their family and friends. I had a nice day, was a little emotional and not quite sure, but all and all given I was able to spend it with everyone I love…I am truly thankful! MERRY CHRISTMAS TO ALL AND TO ALL A GOOD NIGHT! XOXO BTC

WHAT'S THAT SAYING? WHEN LIFE GIVES YOU LEMONS, MAKE LEMONADE? WTF DOES THAT EVEN MEAN?

Today sucked royally, ALL the way around! It's still not over and it still seems to be going out with a bang; and not literally (too bad for me:). Everything that could go wrong did, AND it I already know it's going to continue into tomorrow…FOR SURE! I am ring to have to seriously drown my sorrows in friends and WINE! It's a week before Christmas and I still have to get a few more last minute gifts, but I feel like class A Scrooge so I find very little fun in ANY of it. It said December is going to be incredibly challenging, and dear lord Susan fucking Miller was right! XOXO BTC

CHRISTMAS IT COMING THE GOOSE IS GETTING FAT…PLEASE PUT SOME MONEY IN THIS WOMAN'S HAT

I love the holidays like the rest of em, but gifting a gagillion people is more annoying than ever lately! I know it's the thought that counts, and I LOVE getting people gifts but I am seriously running out of ideas for everyone, AND running out of DOE! When did holidays become the well, not about the actual holiday? Isn't Christ's birth or some shit? Didn't the light stay on for 8 crazy nights? ANYWAY, I used to have all of this holiday cheer partly I think because I was the receiver and less the giver? Meaning I would not have to worry about giving the free world, NOW I am more scrooge than I like to be…UGH. Isn't this what people mean when they say the holidays are so stressful?

I CAN'T SEE THINGS, WELL AT LEAST CAN'T SEE THINGS YOUR WAY,,,

Why is it that people have trouble seeing things for the way that they really are. I find so many people live in worlds of delusions of grander that it's hard sometimes to know what is real and what is not real. The funny part about it, I don't think they even have a clue! AND I am not perfect, clearly we know this…but I hope I know my faults, at least to some extent. I hope I don't put people out so that things are MORE annoying for them, and lord knows I know a slew of people that do that. I can't keep me mouth shut and that's is and will forever be a problem for me, but I don't think I am delusional about that in the least. So it's Sunday, that faithful day that comes before Monday:) Some like it some do not. I love the NIGHT before Monday but not in love with Mondays in general. It's snowed quite a lot here in NJ, which means going to NYC will be a little bit messier than I like, but hey it's winter; AND almost christmas so it actually quite beautiful outside. Hope everyone has a great week, can't WAIT for this one to be OVA already! XOXO BTC

Disfunction is the NEW norm.

It's amazing, we all can be SO incredibly different…but one common thing we all carry, family disfunction. There are SO many things wrong with family, and it's universal everyone has it in some form. Whether it's your family, your in-laws OR both it will happen regardless if you want it to happen or not. It's strangely comforting to know everyone shares in your pain! These last few months have been good and bad at the same time. It's been bittersweet that we left NYC and are now in the burbs, and change is always harder for most people. I am typically good with change, but I have to say this one threw me for a bigger loop. Probably b/c I am still in NYC every day, but can't live there anymore. Sometimes I miss it and sometimes I don't. I live for a playroom, but also live for walking home after a night of drinks:) It's actually been a really weird month, or weird couple of months. One month seems more intense than the next, this being no different. I was warned by Astrology Zone (see last post), and so far so good…or so bad I should say. The holidays always come with a little "crap" to deal with and this year will be no different; might even be a bit worse I must say. We have already gotten some major snow storms in our area, so I fear for things to come. I am used to having these stores in NJ, but when you live in NYC for so many years you really take it for granted, that easy living with snow. There are no road closures, or power outages. There are not MAJOR streets affected, it's just kinda more annoying to get around. The stroller stays outside the apt. everyone's shit all over the outside hallway and you are pissed b/c you are stuck in some relatively small apt. BUT you then come to the burbs and there are so many things that could go down. Well enough venting for one day, until next time… XOXO BTC

DECEMBER is NO BETTER than fucking October!

What is it about Astrology that literally makes me believe, that those things are going to happen? I am one of those people who really believe in that stuff, the stars being aligned and all that…but I depend on it almost to a fault and find things in my daily life to connect with whatever my horoscope said for that particular day. I bank on reading them and then know exactly or think this is what my day will entail! Funny thing is, a lot of time I think that Susan Miller is right on the money!! It's hump day, was supposed to have a drink with one of my best friends but he bailed, so going home to hang with the kids. Not sure which sounds better:) It's early so at this point I would say kids! XOXO BTC

YOU PUT YOUR TWO CENTS IN, I WILL USE IT TO BUY SHIT

You ever meet those people that will give you their 2 cents EVEN when you don't want it, welcome it, or need it? It's kind of amazing, it's always the same people that do it…and for some reason can't stop doing it. And it is THE worst when it's family, b/c you can't get rid of them if you tried! UGH, this Sunday sucked!! Tomorrow is Monday, and I welcome the day to go back into my office and not deal with home SHIT! I welcome the quiet with no kids calling my name and no one telling me what to do, EVEN in my late 30's. I welcome all of it, and welcome it ASAP. Had a great weekend with 2 of my best friends, but it went by way too fast. Now I am just tired, sad and annoyed at the world. Welcome week, come and get me! XOXO BTC

SOME DAY MY PRINCE SHALL COME…

It's weird waiting for something you are not even sure will happen. You put all your eggs into one basket (in my case people don't even know that I am doing that), and just wait and wait and wait. I am not sure if that makes me an optimist or a NON-realist (clearly not even a real word I don't think:). Today is Tuesday, it's just, well terrible. Even if the day is not terrible I have to say it's terrible b/c it's tues! I hope everyone is having an OK day. XOXO BTC

A DIFFERENT KINDA THANKSGIVING

It's weird…if I am not at my moms, having literally the same meal I have had my entire life it does not feel like Thanksgiving to me! No pumpkin bread, no turkey with gravy and all the trimmings…just a different kinda day; but funny enough a really enjoyable one! There were just the right amount of people, and just the RIGHT people there…no hassles, no issues, nothing! I have to admit I am now looking forward to next Thanksgiving, to do it the old fashion way, but it really was a nice departure from the norm:) I hope everyone had a lovely long weekend, celebrating with family and friends. Maybe this time next year, we will be the ones throwing the big holiday celebration!! XOXO BTC