THE RING OF FIRE

I don't know, I think Johnny Cash had a pretty good handle on this world, WAY better than me anyway. He was really able to throw some interesting (but clearly good) lyrics out there, that still stick to this day. "and if burns burns burns, the ring of fire…the ring of fire." It's TT today (Terribly Tuesday) and boy does it ever feel that way! SO many decisions, so little time. I guess life is always throwing curve balls, the question is not IF the it throws you curve balls it's more what you do with them when they are tossed. That sounds totally weird:) GearWe will all get through this, the day, TT but lord it feels like the world is on my shoulders. Clearly I am all about the lyrics today! HA! XOXO BTC

ONE NEVER KNOWS…DO ONE.

NOT sure if I have used that title in the past, BUT it's kind of amazing to think you just don't know what's in store of you next…in life. There are SO many things that make up what our future is, it's impossible to forecast the entire thing. I am thinking about seeing a psychic I saw one once and she really nailed it all on the head! I am afraid at the same time to face some things in my future, b/c that probably means something that is presently happening may not turn out the way I am anticipating. I mean that's life after all right? If we knew everything that would come then the most constant thing in life could NOT be change! HOWEVER, there is that LARGE part of me that wants to see what's around the corner, what door will open next, which one might close. I want to know those things so I can figure out where to put MORE (or less) energy…I NEED that, or so I think that I do. Question is who to go to? ANYWAY, it's Monday and fucking Monday blows…Tues. is DEF. no better, but maybe the world will seem brighter by Wed. and I am sleeping over a bestie's on Thursdays (girls only none of my family and just one kid and no husband on her side) so the week could NOT go by faster!! Until tomorrow. (or quite possibly the next day or the day after that). XOXO BTC

THAT GIRL…YOU KNOW THE ONE!

Why is it the girls that actually don't sleep with the friends boyfriends, are the ones that get the most shit…and then the ones that actually do sleep with girlfriends boyfriends get away with it; AND are still friends with the people they basically fucked over. (literally). Weird how things work like that, I think to myself if they only knew…and clearly everyone makes mistakes but that's def. not a mistake I ever made, and I have made plenty of them. We spent the weekend in AC with friends, a nice departure from the norm…WITHOUT the kids, which was DELIGHTFUL:) It was fun, I am not a super fan of the area, nor do I really love to gamble but a fun night none the less with best friends! See yah MANANA! XOXO BTC

THOSE WERE THE DAYS

Do you remember those days in college when all you had to worry about, was where you were going out that night to drink like an animal? To make sure you were up for class and prepared for some test, and then back to partying? You had nothing to worry about AT all, but yourself and even there you had your parents/parental help (if you were lucky). I miss those days like no other, the days you only worried about yourself! NOW I feel like I worry about everyone else BUT me! Today is Terrible Tuesday, the only redeeming thing about this day is that Brian is leaving for Chicago for a few days so I get some sort of a break:) AND a little help around the house while he is home before leaving for the airport (so lovely). Can't wait for the weekend…I think it's everyone's saving grace. We are AC bound with friends for the night (sat. to sunday) and I could really use a little alone time with my man! XOXO BTC

MONDAY MONDAY...

SO I used to wake up on Monday AM, or rather Sunday morning feeling like full fucking shit, pissed that I had to go to work Monday AM. I would think to myself it can't always be this fucking annoying to go to work, because you see ME I actually like to work! THANK GOD today is Monday, and I don't feel a BIT like I used to…there was even a moment with clients' when I felt that way (and I lived for doing my own thing), but now it's REALLY all about me. I am going to actually pat myself on the back for a moment b/c I don't do that like ever, and just bask in the glow of the things I am working on creating. HOLLA! (ew that so sounded like Heather from The Real Housewives of NYC). XOXO BTC

PICTURES DON'T TELL THE WHOLE STORY

WHAT is it about today's society, that every AMAZING moment we have to stop to take a pic? I guess we were always like that, but at the same time we took the pic and then we were done until we exposed the film. Nowadays we take a pic and it's instantaneous for us to post it on some sort of social media outlet…like IMMEDIATELY! ME included, but really what's that about? We capture the moment but they way in which we capture the moment is different, b/c everyone can see it RIGHT away. Some better than others, some edited, some not. I am not sure I like this time, the way it's done I mean it's great to connect with all my friends, but we are (and the younger generation for SURE feels this way), so engrossed in posting it that we forget to enjoy the moment. Had a lovely girls night out down at the Jersey Shore, makes me miss those precious times with good friends…and NO FUCKING MAN OR KIDS! XOXO BTC

SOME THINGS NEVER CHANGE

It's weird, sometimes I am so excited for something to happen and then the actual day comes and it never lives up my expectations. I am not sure if I hold the candle too high or if the occasion is really not that great? It's weird, not sure if anyone has any idea what I mean but it's just a feeling I have and one that I have often. Makes me feel like sometimes I want TOO much or expect TOO much, and then what's offered is in fact very little. Some things just never change, I think I have always been this way. A little skeptical a little cynical but always hopeful. XOXO BTC

WHAT GOES UP MUST COME DOWN

Isn't it funny in life anytime things are looking bright (or brighter), something comes along to fuck it up again? It's just funny how life works that way…I had that happen today. I don't want to jinx it or make it worse by even identifying the issue, but it's annoying that things were really progressing nicely and then BOOM some shit has to hit that same damn fan! SO typical for a Tuesday but not typical for a Monday. ANYhoo….the weekend came and went, spent it with my besets friend in the entire world and her family, was very lovely. There was ONE thing (issue), when another family "stopped" by…the mesh of kids DID not work. I am used to throwing these girls into any situation and having it, well work! Along came this family with 2 kids, and one of them royally fucked the happy rotation. Needless to say it was a bit of a shit storm for 2 hours, and needless to say hoping I don't really have to see them again until one of their kids parties! AWFUL to say, BUT TRUE! My kids are certainly not the BEST kids in the world and they have their faults as does everyone, but this was a whole new level of annoying. Makes you wonder if they have any other friends? OYE to say the least! Hoping the week does not suck as much as today did…could really use a drink but it's Monday and I try to hold out at least until Tuesdays! XOXO BTC

"AND THE BEAT GOES ON…DA DA DA DA DA DAADAA DA DA"

Eminem really knows how to throw down THE best lyrics. Just a nod to one of my favorites:) So, there you have it…that's a wrap! B2 office is officially no closed (in NYC with the exception of a client or 2), and onto BIGGER and better things. I owe my career path and success of the past moves, to the next chapters I am about to embark on. It was strange at first (first few days) to change my settings to home and not the office, but have just as much to do in such a different capacity. To concentrate fully on myself (and legitimately)is an odd feeling. It's Tuesday, and you know what I call Tuesdays (Terrible Tuesday),that shit ain't gonna change. HOLLA! XOXO BTC PS: that's the most fucking annoying thing that girl Heather does on "The Real Housewives Of New York." INSERT VOMIT!!!