GIRLS WILL BE GIRLS

The ONE reason I was ever apprehensive about having girls, is the single fact that they can be so incredibly cruel. I did not want my kids to go through some of the things that I went through, and did not want them to BE the "mean girls"…EVER! I drill it into their head but lord knows if they are listening, b/c when they leave the house clearly I can't be there for every move. Most recently Aiden came home saying she was part of a fairy group, and that she had wings and so and so was the leader, and they had to do this, and they had to do that. Needless to say, I BUGGED! BIG TIME! It's such a fine line of letting them know the right and wrong things to do, without crushing their need to explore and create some sort imaginary world. I want her to know what's real but I want her mind to create fun things too; where she and her friends can be anything that they want to be. I want her to do all of those things, without excluding ANYone at all. It's tuff. I hope everyone had a great weekend, ours was good. Looking forward to a few days off this week, time with the fam, friends and kids:) XOXO BTC

GOD BLESS YOU HODA AND KATHY LEE, NO FOR REAL GOD BLESS YOU

IT's Friday and it's my day to work from home. It's such a lovely thing, b.c I literally sit at my computer, without any interruptions doing everything I need to do; WHILE I also clean the house and do laundry. Sounds so simple, but it's really that lovely! I am looking forward to the weekend for no real reason, we may have plans tomorrow night but I just want to drink tonight with my man and go to be early! I want to lie like broccoli and enjoy QT time. Part of my wants to take a bath right now, but that's going to cut into all the other shit I need to do:) I am watching Hoda and Kathy Lee, and it's 11 AM. They are having a lovely LARGE glass of wine, and it looks so amazing. If I did NOT have to get my kids at 330, I would 100% have a glass right now. One thing that SUCKS to be in the burbs…b/c this girl will NEVER drink and drive. AIGHT, have a good one. BON weekend! XOXO BTC

THANK YOU AND GOODNIGHT

https://medium.com/on-startups/ba600f39a13d AMEN THE END. XOXO BTC

SO CLOSE BUT YET SO FAR AWAY...

Have you ever wanted something SO badly you can (as they say), just taste it? I feel that way all the time, and more and more each day. I can see it, it is so close but I can't quite grab it. I take small steps forward, inches in fact and then get WACKED in the face. BUT the best thing is...I just keep on plugging along; like a warrior or a total ASSHOLE! Not sure which one it is but I will be certain to let you know. Tomorrow is Monday, that amazing day where you kick off the week and there are so many possibilities; but at the same time there are so many things that could go wrong. I need a fucking vacation (have not taken one of those with my man since 2006), no for real I am not playin! Love to all! XOXO BTC

IT'S FRIDAY, AND I'M GONNA GET YOU HIGH TODAY, CAUSE YOU AIN'T GOT NO JOB...AND YOU AIN'T GOT SHIT TO DO!"

THE single best movie of the 90's if you ask ME! So it's that glorious day of the week that EVERYONE seems happier, EVERYONE has a little more spring to their step and EVERYONE is slightly nicer to strangers...Friday! It's the best day of the week, so many weekend possibilities and SO little time! It is such a lovely feelin! This weekend Aiden is having her girlfriends from her class over, for a little PJ party. I love to see her happy and excited, SANS the anxiety. I am hoping this will bring her close to the girls and I can learn a little bit more about the parents. I always knew that having girls would be harder, SO great and so amazing in so many ways...but once they got older in school, I knew there were be a lot more SHIT! It's hard to see your girls go through things even at such a young age, and you want to shelter them from the pain you know other bitches will cause them. BUT realistically there are always mean girls, so you can't shelter them from everything and everyone. All you can do is provide them with the most amazing love and support at home, guidance and all and pray they can get through it! I hope everyone has a great weekend! Much love! XOXO BTC

DECKED OUT WITH NO PLACE TO GO!

I remember the days in fashion, where every day we came into the office DECKED to the nines! And when I mean decked I mean serious heels, clothing, jewelry, the whole kit and caboodle...just to pack some trunks for a shoot, stand in the fashion closet, or go on market appointments all day long. Question is who were we dressing FOR? and WHY did we feel like we had to dress to impress? Cathie Black the former President of Hearst used to say, "Dress for the job you want, not for the job that you have." I mean in theory it does make sense, and we are working in media right? Today is Thursday, which means I work from home tomorrow. I can't believe the week flew by so fast, but I am honestly glad that it did!! Aiden is having her friends from school over for a P.J. party Sat. that should suck royally for me, but be super fun for her! XOXO BTC

SOME PEOPLE HAVE WAY TOO MUCH TIME ON THEIR HANDS, OR NOT ENOUGH TIME TO USE THEIR HANDS?

Don't you wish you had enough time to fully enjoy taking a shit? I mean really...if I had 15 minutes to myself without someone calling me name, my phone not going off, my mind not racing just to go to the bathroom I would be a changed woman! As insane and well gross as that sounds, that's exactly how I feel! Where does the time go? Why do the days go by so fast as you get older? Why do the kids grow up so fast, and how can we make it slow down? How can we have a little bit more time for ourselves, and more time for our significant others? How can we make time to help our family and friends get by/through whatever they need...how can we just slow down? AND is it even possible? What needs to give, what can we omit so that we have more time for ourselves? Do we want more time or are we better with more things to juggle? I have no idea what the answers to my questions are, not sure that anyone does. All I know is that sometimes I feel like my body is going to explode, I get angry at other people who don't get how much it is to try and be everything to everyone. GONE are those days when I only worried about myself, but then again I chose this life. So it's kind of null and void. Now I am just talking out of my OWN asshole (mouth:). IToday is my fav. day of the week, "Terrible Tuesday." When everyone has BIGGER assholes (mouths) and everyone annoys me MORE! When things just don't as planned and everything sucks a little harder. X XOXO BTC

WHAT HAPPENS WHEN YOU DON'T LIKE SOMEONE...THAT'S FOREVER GOING TO BE IN YOUR DANM LIFE!

REALLY what happens when you know someone could potentially be in your forever, but you're not super fond of them? Is that what it's like when your kid brings someone home and they end up marrying them? UGH I am so not down with that:) I wonder what the other person sees in them, and why they don't see what I/we see? I wonder if they see the parts that suck about them, that are all too evident when we are all together? I think to myself, there's no way you don't see it, feel it...the tension, you could cut it with a knife! It's Monday and just about everything and everyone irks me! I hope everyone had a fulfilling weekend, whatever the fuck that means:) XOXO BTC

AS GOD IS MY WITNESS I WILL NOT CONFORM

I have this extreme way about me, that does not want the world to categorize me as "the norm." I am not sure if it's because my entire youth I tried so hard to be like everyone else around me, that I was awakened in college to the fact that I am not like anyone else; and learned to embrace it. I now do MORE than embrace it, I don't allow myself to conform to the norm. Something about the way I do something, dress, talk has to consistently be different from others...or I feel, well like a clone. I could psycho analyze this until the cows come home, but I do think it's really as simple as finally feeling ok in my own multi-colored skin. So it's Sunday, and we will be spending the day watching football with one of my best friends; really there's nothing BETTER!! I hope everyone had a lovely weekend, off to the start of yet another work week:) XOXO BTC

NO PAIN NO GAIN

Working out for me is really all or nothing. I can't do it SOMETIMES or SOME days a week, I have to do it everyday with MAYBE one day off. If I don't do it like that I don't feel fully committed; and I know some people say that's aggressive, but it's the only way I really know. If I am not working out then I am not working out at all, which happens VERY little in my life. It is my outlet, my moment of clarity and peace...my A HA moment. I love everything about it, and always like to try new things! THAT'S all I got on "Terrible Tuesday!" XOXO BTC

THE MIRACLE OF LIFE...

IT'S amazing sometimes to think that we actually have kids, that WE made! If you don't have kids that's going to sound really weird, but if you do you will just get it! I look at the girls and think I cannot believe you belong to me; that I am that lucky to have you! We spent the day yesterday with best friends that are literally family...I spent the entire time holding their newborn son. He was SO delicious, so little and so freaking cute! SO much of me could do it again, have a 3rd then I think about how easy life has become b/c they are both so self sufficient and I think yeah not going to happen. NOT to mention my man won't have it:) I am thinking that November is going to be WAY better than Oct. but then I say that, and then the shit will hit the fan. I can take the normal crap, but the WACKED out shit I cannot handle ONE more moment!! Happy Monday! XOXO BTC