A ok to PLAY

SO I got the A OK from the super doc. to have sex...all scheduled to go into have an IUD put in today, and I get a call saying they are out of the device. NO FOR REAL, a Manhattan dr.'s office, affiliated with Cornell Medical and there's not a device in the whole damn place! WTF, it's like the twilight zone!!!

I WOULD HAVE AN EASIER TIME GETTING OUT OF A TURKISH PRISON!

I seriously have THE hardest time getting 2 kids out of the house! NOW not many places I can really even go with LJ, her shots are on the 30th..but just getting into the car to go to my mom's, is a TOTAL shit show!

Ciao for now!
XO
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THE IN-BETWEEN, THE TIE, THE CROSS-ROADS....THE NOT BEFORE BUT NOT QUITE AFER!

The in-between, the no longer pregnant but not back to, "The way we were" sucks royally! You are no longer pregnant and that's totally amazing for many reasons, but you are not, NOT pregnant either. I find this might be THE worst time!

You have now somewhat adapted to life with a newborn (for the first time or again) and things are somewhat normal, but at the same time you don't feel very normal at all. Everyone talks about pre-pregnancy size but what about the time before that, but post birth? BLOWS!!! The whole "transitional" period sucks! Make sure and get some clothing that you love to hold you over, or the feeling is just that much worse! DO NOT squeeze yourself into anything because that's certainly not cute AT all! Go ahead and spend that doe!

OFF to work out like it's my job, with giant tits and a "cute" little tummy pouch...DELIC!

BON WEEKEND!
XOXO
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CAN'T GET OUT OF MY OWN WAY...AND I APPARENTLY BLOCK MYSELF CONSTANTLY!

Why is it that even enjoying a glass of wine is not the same, the excitement of going out is not the same, everything just "Feels" differently at the moment!

I want everything to stay the same yet be different. I want to have it all and eat my cake too! I want to be the same person I was before kids, now with kids...but that's just NOT possible, and this I know. NOT to mention I would not have it any other way! IT's amazing that even when you know what happens after the baby is born, and the emotional roller-coaster that you ride, it's still not enough warning to go through it again...and you forget that you are in "transition" time, that you don't just pop back into the person you were, before the baby came! I need to remind myself that constantly, just to get through the day sometimes.

I am so fine with not having a typical "maternity leave" I love what I do and there's not taking time off, but at the same time, I can never get this time back with Lila so I try and stop and take a moment, to remember that. I want to be the one that has it all but keeps it together at the same time, most of the time I like to think that I am...but other times I am a mess. You would think I would weight 10 pounds for the amount of time I am on my feet and not sitting; but then again, SO many woman do just as much if not more than I do...so I SHOULD be able to hack it!

Anyway, it's life changing they say having a baby..."Having a baby changes everything" I just don't want to forget who I am/was and hope to still be, SOME of that person.

XOXO
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CONFINED TO THE HOME...

You know I did not realize having a baby in October, can be tricky when you have more than one! Due to the weather and the lag time before the new one gets her shots, you are pretty much confined to the home! Lila cannot accompany Aiden yet on playdates at other people's homes, and no one can really come here...ON TOP of it being flu season, etc. it's kinda a shit show!

We have all been sick since the last week of Sept. LITERALLY, and it does not seem to go away...but it also may be circulating in our home, since we are all stuck inside! SO, IF we are to have another one, I am going to make sure and give birth in the last spring or early summer, just makes things a bit easier I think?

TIRED, would not have it any other way, BUT super tired!!!!
XOXOXO
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