It's Friday, and I'm gonna get you high today...b/c you aint got no job, and you ain't got shit to do!

I MAY have selected this title in a previous post, but I just love the movie "Friday" WAY to much to not put it up today! This is how I am feeling (sans the no job part) I am just a happy little camper that it's Friday today! I am happy that I don't have to work tomorrow, I am happy that I can drink tonight with friends, I am happy my mom will be watching my kids to have a damn break and I am happy that it's Friday for just SO many reasons! "It's Friday...and I'm gonna get you high today!" What does it say about a person when they are defined by material things? Does it say they don't know any differently or that they just put an emphasis on what they have because it makes them feel better about themselves; more important? I don't miss having those types of friends I really don't. I think as I got older and realized all the bullshit my parents used to call out with my friends was true, that I came to grips with those truths too. They used to try and sit me down and explain to me what kinds of people there were, and why it was not such a nice way to be...but as 15 year old who did not want to be told what to do, I was not hearing it! I am thankful that the things that they did say, sunk in, in so many ways...ways I did not even realize until now. THANK GOD for good parents and good values. I don't blame the people I used to call my friends and would be civil if and when we are all together again, but we don't share the same life, values, goals or anything! I want things for myself, I want to make them for myself I want to work hard for things...and feel like I have EARNED them, was not given them. I was always fortunate to go and do whatever I want, take vacations have pretty things but the values were just never simpatico. ANYHOO, BON weekend to all! XOXO BTC

WTF EVERYONE'S GOT A BLOG...OOPS, INCLUDING ME!

Weird how people never thought of this type of outlet until now...the kind where you can talk about anything (most focus on a subject, I just ramble), but a place you can just BE, SAY, DO what you want. But really, why am I more special than anyone else (I am not), and WTF everyone's got a blog...including me. Why I would think people might be interested in what I say is kinda comical, and I mean...narcassistic? I mean, it's a given that if you are putting stuff out there for the general public you probably feel confident about what you are talking about! NO? Anyway, I am so tired must go to sleep...but could not go to bed without jotting down that one thought. Tomorrow is Friday, and I am going to drink my way through it! XOXO BTC

YODLE LEY HE TATTOOOOOOOOO....

The great question of the day, should I get another tat? To be or not to be, that is the question...well not really, but you know what I mean. It's a big decision and to have them removed is such a pain so you really have to be into what you got going on, on your body! Yodle ley he tattooooooooo Thoughts? Question now is where and what, because my appointment is at 1, DOPE! XOXO BTC

"AND YOU THINK SHE'S JUST A FRIEND...OH BABY YOU, YOU GOT WHAT I NEED..."

I seriously don't think that Biz could have said it ANY better! Why is that some people just don't know how to be a friend, and really when I say that I am talking about girls. I have THE best girlfriends ever...but then I have some "friends" who are just all about themselves; AND self promotion. Why is is that they think we are friends...and that I got what they need? I would like to state for the record, that I am the person who IS in fact friends with some people like this, so I am for sure partly to blame. It's like if I feel this way, then why are we still friends? I can't for the life of my think what that reason might be, but at the same time I am sick of trying to be the one that spearheads the friendship. Why do I schedule the drinks, why do YOU cancel, why do I attempt at having a friendship and yours seems out of convenience? Come to think of it, it's kind of pathetic on my part. In some way, I really enjoy their company and have a great time when we are together! BUT at the same time, if it's more one-sided (b/c of course are always busier than you)...thank FINE! I won't put anymore effort in, but then I think what if I need something from you? CanI turn the tables and use you in some way? CAN I? It's hump day here in NYC, the weather is fucking horrendous and there's no end in sight. I am SO pissed b/c I am supposed to enjoy a day at Matty's pool (Friday), and it does not look like the weather is really going to hold up! I hate the summer in so many ways, but then when I want to do things like that I get upset if the weather is actually bad! OMG this post is all over the damn map, it's like a window into my head! HA XOXO BTC

IT'S YOUR WORLD WE JUST LIVE IN IT...

Brian always uses that saying about people, and to be perfectly honest it's a great one! Why is it that so many people think that the world revolves around them, so they can just come and go as they please...and well, we just need to alter our life to fit theirs? Why is it that it's just your world and we live in it? I would like to think that's NOT the type of person that I am, but then again sometimes you don't really know yourself. I think there's a good indication when you have a group of people, who's general consensus is just that...general. What happens if that person is a good friend or even worse family, how do you live in "Their" world when it always revolve around them? AND how do you tell them, well that they are selfish? And that's just it, it's all about me, what is good for me, what can you do for me, me, me, me, me. And then when you try to tell them it's like that, they act like you are the crazy one! That was just a portion of my weekend, the rest was great:) ANYway, I hope everyone had a good weekend and you know Monday always does have to come around...but that just means Tues, Wed. and then the end of the week comes shortly there after! XOXO BTC

I AM A MOM, EVEN WHEN I DON'T WANT TO BE ONE..

Strange to think that even at times you want to be someone you are not. You want to relieve yourself of those things you are programmed to do, as a mom...so that you can (for a moment), not be that person. BUT in the end, I realized. I am a mom even when I don't want to be. What does that say about me, as a person? OR does it mean when you cross over in that arena that is just the way it's going to be? I think I am finally ok with that, I can still hold my own...but at the end of the day, it's clearly the most important job I have; and the most important boss that I need to be! I hope everyone's having a good weekend...I have been drunk for a very large portion of it! XOXO BTC

I AM EXCITED FOR WHAT THE FUTURE HOLDS...

You know when when you can finally see the light at the end of the tunnel? I can finally put these words down on paper, and feel good about the fact I can really see what the future WILL hold. I worry when I say things that by saying them it makes them real and legit; and if that does not happen...I will have failed in SOME way. I am excited for what the future holds, whatever that my be. People say you control your own destiny and in many ways I do think that is true; but I also think it takes an incredible amount of hard work too! Wait I am just coming back to this 6 hours later...and I can't even really remember what I was talking about...ON TOP of the fact that I am now having some White wine:) GOOD night! XOXO BTC